People Can Be So Cruel

People often use religion to spread false hate.

09-24-22

People are cruel. Sadly, people often use religion to be even more cruel. I have been writing my thoughts on a couple different platforms for many years. My son died by his own hand May 2, 2021. He made some very poor life decisions that led to his decision to leave this world. I had someone send me a private message months later. She told me to quit trying to act like some altruistic saint. She then told me if I don't change, and return to Jesus, I'll meet my son in hell. She ended by telling me to let her know how bad my life gets without Jesus.

Nothing she said bothered me. I've heard it all before. Her words made me feel sad for all the people who are in this world with those same beliefs. I am not here to argue or debate my beliefs. More importantly, I will not try to shove my beliefs on anyone. I simply want to share my story, and what I have learned in this life.

People are free to read my writings and decide if it is true for them. I wish more people would go within to find their truth. Too many people run to outside sources for direction. I'm not trying to prove anything to anyone. More importantly, I am not perfect, nor do I try to act like I am. I've made mistakes. I've hurt other people, and I admitted to it. I've apologized when I could.

It took me many years to break free of society's expectations and ideals. I was baptized in a Baptist Church. I was exposed to a Mormon Church, and many of their "requirements" to make it to heaven. I went through a Blessing ceremony in a Church of Christ. I was "saved" in a Pentecostal Holiness church after being threatened with hell fire, and brimstone. So many times, I broke down and squalled like a baby. My child within cried. My very soul cried. My heart cried because it felt like it was ripping into a million pieces. I cried because my entire inner being did not understand how people could teach the ideals they did. I cried because my soul screamed for those who so easily believed what they were being told. It took me a long time to realize the God I know, and respect, was not the one in any of those religions. My child within helped me to realize my truth.

Again, I just want to share my story. I do not want to force my beliefs on others. I hope others can begin to learn to go within to find their answers, instead of following others blindly. We cannot heal others. But we can help them find the tools they need to heal themselves.

Written by: Anita Austin